I'm not a princess, just a dreamer

a-fool:

I’m frustrated, at my self, at him, at the world.

All these stupid words, that constantly come in and out, one second it’s one thing then the next it’s another. It’s we’re all about each other, we’ll make it work, we’ll work on getting the relationship up to what we want out of life. Rules and regulations are discussed and set. Everything is sweet words and happy as can be, and calm. It was a good night’s sleep.

They next day rolls around, and it’s suddenly to early for rules. No. I’m sick of that shit, it’s everything or it’s nothing. It’s two people admitting there is a legit reason why we keep falling back into each other. It isn’t because it’s easy, we both make it hard as fuck, but because there is something real there. Something, not one of a kind, but better then the rest.

So like I said, everything or nothing. Either we’re standing up and doing something or we’re back to being two people who can do whatever they want and just have a ridiculous amount of feelings for each other.

After stating that opinion I haven’t heard from him. he told me to ‘go easy with that’ fuck you dude, easy with me. This shit is to much sometimes. I’m tired of being let down, I’m sick of thinking something’s up to have the world flipped around on me. I’m sick of tired of defending my feelings to people, falling back on hope that this is something. Will be something.

We want the same things out of life, I wish he’d stop making this shit so hard. The past is the past but when long distance is involved things can get a bit messy. Would be a way to get over those jealousy and trust issues real fast. If it didn’t work, it will never work, but if it can then we have a shot at something.

(Source: things4love)